In the interest of commemorating the first anniversary of this blog I held a contest. The contest had no real rules. Really you just had to get my attention with a comment or comments. The prize is a handwritten poem sent to your real-life mailbox. I wasn’t sure if anyone would actually be interested in this… and I did very little to actually promote the contest. Still, comments were made and I feel like it was worthwhile.
It has been difficult, however, to decide on the winner. Lady Day and The White Pumpkin both caught my attention with their frequent comments. Autumn gets honorable mention, but the winner is…
Send me your snail-mail address and I will send you a poem. I will be sure to include a return address in case you are dissatisfied in anyway…
Thank you all for playing. To everyone who did not win… stay tuned. I will likely have more contests in the future.
It was a beautiful fall day
And a rain soaked night
With leaves covering the street
The night they hit that tree.
No one was drunk
No one was high
Kids just drive too fast
over wet leaves.
I used to play with Ricky
He was kind of a tool
He came off as arrogant and snobby
Even in the fifth grade.
But he could run
And I know he lit up his parents eyes
And I’m sure they expected a lot
And I’m sure he felt the pressure.
But a lot of us did
And we were just kids
So we played baseball and softball and wiffle ball–
I don’t think we cared as long as we could get on the diamond.
We played kickball too
Which just proves my point
We just wanted to play
On that diamond, which happened to be across the street from his house.
I buried a time capsule near that diamond once
I wonder if it is still there,
I buried it years before Ricky died
I don’t even remember exactly where.
I hate that his parents don’t get to see him
They don’t get to fight
They don’t get to make up
No one gets to grow with each other.
I remember the diamond
And how we used to play
And I wish that he were here with us
and not just in spirit.
I clutched that bible to my chest
To feel the magic in my bones
Whispers of eternity
That made me who I am.
The leather soft and worn by use
and time and turning every page
The gilded pages shine in light
But it’s the words that burn my soul.
Often I am scared to touch
And going near makes sore afraid
What lies within has holy weight
And I am but a man.
The questions and the answers found
Can be hard to live out here
But still I clutch my leather-bound
Trembling with my holy fear.
I woke this morning and found the light
And it was hard to take
But gentle hands took me in
And joy peeked over the fence.
There was a moment
When I was much younger
That stands out still
A moment where someone really went all out
And made me really smile.
Of course it was a girl
(I am still a flirt,
and a sucker)
but it was so heartfelt
And no one expected anything wrong
Or much at all…
It was when she said,
“Let’s go upstairs,”
that I began to feel better
and no, this doesn’t go there–
get your mind out of the gutter.
We were at a dance
in a mansion
and the upstairs was off-limits.
She wore a long sequined evening gown
and it sparkled in the light
as she bent
to step under the ropes,
pulling me by the hand behind her.
I don’t know
if I could ever
what it was like
for two teenagers
to sneak up those stairs
her in that sparkling gown
and me in my step-father’s black tuxedo…
and there is no guilt,
and no shame,
and even the memory of it
makes me smile.
She was ravishingly beautiful
With long dark locks
and big beautiful eyes.
I don’t dream about her
and don’t pine for what once was
I just am happy
that it was
Her dress sparkled
and so did her eyes
it was with mischief.
“Let’s get in here,
and take pictures…
it will be funny.”
but it was a lot more
than just funny–
it made me smile.
Would the world were like this moment
Waiting in this holy hush
Would that I could stay here often
And so a dream is born.
The world conspires with my own heart
To take each joy upon the rack
And sometimes then I say a thing
And never have a chance to get it back.
I thought of all the hope today
And all that went before me here
I know that I will see my Lord
And this will keep my fear.