I leave the blank stare that hides
What it thinks it cannot hold
And go to one that still abides
Though it seems to be quite old.
I wish for all the young ones now
And even will I say a prayer
That they would not feel this alone
As I do now deep in this lair.
But as the sleeping dragon wakes
And I begin to rouse again
It is to pain and suffering
That I awake inside this den.
Traveling alone
I have found my need for others
And searching inside
Has shown me where the answers are not
But let me love now
Though I do not know the way
Let me love now
Though I do not know how.
I must trust
and learn to trust
That you are not in my life
for nothing.
But for want of laughter
And I would embrace
Open ears with open hearts
Searching for His face
But He always sees
And that I forget
And in the heat of the sun
In the middle of Africa
In a dry land
He makes a way
And it does not escape His notice.
And He loves.
If you pretend to overlook an offense
It really isn’t love.
And resentment builds and it comes out
One way or another.
I love to find the best of things
And search them to the core
But dinner bells begin to ring
and my mind leaves the fore.
I would love to really love
And the older now I get
I realize just how hard it is
To even love myself.
Quick falls the pretense
When life is on the line.
I cannot pretend now
To be more spiritual
Than I really am today
My heart just can’t take the lying.
Love really is
The hardest and the best
The journey and the goal
God see me through.
Taking time to listen
I might just hear a sound
And so I go to find you now
I pray you’ll be around.
What if I wanted to learn to dance?
Is life too far gone?
Has it passed me by?
I hear rhythms in every silence
and every noise
and can’t help but tap my foot..
In the good and in the bad
Let me move
And let me learn to move.
Here in the bright sun
With the hot wind at day
And the cold wind at night
With the sand
And the snakes,
Here the harshness speaks volumes
Speaks words we would never want to say
Speaks of our hearts and to our hearts
And here (in this wilderness)
Is the voice of God.
Let my heart be still
And let the words ring clear
Whether a whisper or a shout
From a friend
or an enemy
Let me listen in this place
and let what is spoken
sit in my bones
and may my mind and heart understand
What my soul has already learned.
We have all been many places
even if we never leave home
and what we look for
this is not inside of ourselves.
Here comes the burning
And here comes the pain
And here comes the way out
And this place is dry.
Dust clouds and dry grass
Turning yellow and brown
Choking breathing coughing
Parched and feeling worn.
Let us draw near
In fellowship with fear
Let us kneel down
And listen for rain.
Led around by one
Who was being led around by God
Even though she did not know it
And so certain memories were brought back to mind
And I was alone with them
While with her
As if she was not there
But there was small talk
And joking
Which seemed a bit of a relief
to her
even though
it definitely did not mean
that I was OK…
A Soul's Walk 