Steps

But then I took a step
A step towards something terrible,
Something awesome,
Something other
A step towards the most terrifying thing I had ever known-
It was the voice of God.

Some of you will know
What it is like
To feel compelled
To step closer
To something
Something you know can destroy you.

So it is with God.

And I took a step.

Have mercy on me a sinner.

Made Alive

But it seems crushing
To come alive
And feel so much pain
And all at once.

It becomes hard to separate
What hurts come from where
And the temptation
Is to flee.

As if you could escape
As if that were even an answer
But though it seems a poverty of choice
The weight of it still presses in.

I Noticed Something Concerning Prayer

It occurs to me
That I have never regretted
Spending time in prayer.

I have regretted
Watching TV
Eating things
Not eating things

But never prayer.

I have regretted
Having sex
Lying to make myself appear better than I really am
Staying silent
Not writing

But never prayer.

I have regretted
Speaking my mind
Saying something true
My own feelings
Being slow to forgive

But never prayer.

My prayers
Have sometimes been
Selfish
Short-sighted
Angry
Sad
Broken
Fearful
Childish
Without much faith

And yet…

Of all the things I have regretted

Prayer is not on that list.

Taste and See

Thankful.
Blessed.
In my pain,
In my joy-
You are still God.

Though I forget
And though I fall
You are my forgiveness
You are my second chance
You are my redemption
You are still God.

Today
In the people I meet
I hear you speak
I feel your touch
I taste and see
You are still God.