I Noticed Something Concerning Prayer

It occurs to me
That I have never regretted
Spending time in prayer.

I have regretted
Watching TV
Eating things
Not eating things

But never prayer.

I have regretted
Having sex
Lying to make myself appear better than I really am
Staying silent
Not writing

But never prayer.

I have regretted
Speaking my mind
Saying something true
My own feelings
Being slow to forgive

But never prayer.

My prayers
Have sometimes been
Selfish
Short-sighted
Angry
Sad
Broken
Fearful
Childish
Without much faith

And yet…

Of all the things I have regretted

Prayer is not on that list.

Taste and See

Thankful.
Blessed.
In my pain,
In my joy-
You are still God.

Though I forget
And though I fall
You are my forgiveness
You are my second chance
You are my redemption
You are still God.

Today
In the people I meet
I hear you speak
I feel your touch
I taste and see
You are still God.

The Deception of Greed

To be trapped and not even know it
That is a perfect description
Of how to play the fool.

Why is it so hard to see?
Why do I look anywhere other than Jesus,
To find peace?

Every time I search around
I play the fool
And it is not just me who suffers
-it is those I care for as well.

“Do not covet,” it says
And do I hear?
“Clothe yourself with the Lord Jesus…”
Do I listen?

The Other Knock at the Door

The temptation,
Of course,
Is to quit,
To give up
To revel in your weakness
Because you have no reason
To deny its reality
But our lives are stories
And they do not end
When or how
We choose
And sometimes
Just sometimes
There is the sound of horns on the field of battle
When the story is at its darkest.