If you pretend to overlook an offense
It really isn’t love.
And resentment builds and it comes out
One way or another.
I love to find the best of things
And search them to the core
But dinner bells begin to ring
and my mind leaves the fore.
I would love to really love
And the older now I get
I realize just how hard it is
To even love myself.
Quick falls the pretense
When life is on the line.
I cannot pretend now
To be more spiritual
Than I really am today
My heart just can’t take the lying.
Love really is
The hardest and the best
The journey and the goal
God see me through.
Sometimes people make you feel like an afterthought
And it stings a little
And you want to return the favour.
But love is different
And I was first loved
And people have their own story- especially the people hurting your feelings.
They are so honest and yet so mysterious.
A long road with real stress
A real sense you will not last
And will not pass a single test
And cannot leave the past.
But real hope is for these times
And for these thoughts and for this heart
And though it be in pieces now
This is where faith grows.
if we are honest,
We want to avoid the confrontation
(not all of us mind you).
But all of us
Want to avoid
We all want to be loved-
But how hard is it?
We all want to belong,
But we don’t always look around us.
we all want to connect with someone-
we need to connect with someone.
And who is trying?
to connect with us,
Loving is hard, isn’t it?
And I am not talking about romance
The way is hard
and who can tread it,
that it is hard to go without people
and that it can be hard to love people without God
and it can be hard to approach God…
and then there is this gospel.
But I want to give in
And give up
Better men than me could not change
And who am I?
I want to fall back into darkness
As it gently tears me to peaces from the inside out
In what world could I possibly ever hope to triumph?
In what world could I ever imagine changing?
Who am I that I should think I could be better?
That I could change?
I am nothing.
I am no one.
But then there was the incarnation.
Did not God become a man?
Blood and scales and screaming pain
I beg you to change what I cannot change-
Forgive me and show me flying horses.
Restore me and let me be held.
Let that tiny seed grow.
“Forgive them Lord,
for they know not what they do.”
I think I speak for all of us
When I say
That we wish we could say this of ourselves
we often do
what we do.
And we still do it.
I think we all find it hard
To forgive our enemies
But without forgiveness
Where would we go?
What would there be left?
How can I leave the dark
If I fear the light will not accept me?
How can I be holy
If the righteous do not offer shelter?
How can I believe in God
If I still think he’s out to get me?
How can I trust
When I do not trust?
Even a vision of beauty as such
Becomes a fearsome cruel sharp knife
And plunged into my heart again
I do not see the grace and truth
And after all,
Why would there be a place for me in this world
Why would another forgive me?